Mother's Day Special "ବାପା ଓ ମା "

ଗୁରୁ ବୋଲି କିଛି ଜାଣିବା ଆଗରୁ ଗୁରୁ ଟିଏ ପାଇଥିଲି
ସିଏ ଥିଲା ମୋର ସ୍ନେହମୟୀ ମା ପ୍ରଥମରୁ ଚିନ୍ହିଥିଲି |

ମା ସତେ ତୁ ଗଢିଥିଲୁ ମୋତେ ଅଳି ଅଝଟକୁ ସହି
ଦୁଖ ଯନ୍ତ୍ରଣାକୁ କେତେ ଯେ ସହିଛୁ ପାରିବିନି ମୁ କହି |

ଗୁରୁନ୍କ ତାଡନା ଜାଣିବା ଆଗରୁ ତାଡନା ମୁ ପାଇଥିଲି
ସେ ତାଡନା ଥିଲା ବାପାନ୍କର ମୋର ସବୁ କିଛି ଭୁଲିଗଲି

ତାଡନା ନଥିଲା ଥିଲା ସେ ଶାସନ କରିବାକୁ ଶ୍ରୁନ୍ଖଳିତ
ନୁହେ କେବଳ ଯେ ଉକ୍ତି ଏହା ମୋର ସମସ୍ତଂକ ଅଭିମତ |

ପାଇଥିଲି ସ୍ନେହ ଗାଳି ବୋଲି ଆଜି ସଫଳ ମୋର ଜୀବନ
ତାଂକ ପାଦ ତଳେ କରୁଛି ଆଜି ମୁ ଶତ ଶତ ନମ ନମ |

ଭୁଲିବିନି କେବେ କରୁଛି ପ୍ରତିଞା ଠାକୁରଂକୁ ସାକ୍ଷୀ ରଖି
କରି ତାଂକ ପୁଜା ଉଡାଇବି ଧ୍ବଜା ସଫଳ ଆଣିବି ଡାକି |

ପିତା ମାତା କଥା ମାନିଥିବ ଯିଏ ନିସ୍ଚୟ ବଡ ହୋଇବ
ହାରିବନି କେବେ ଘୁନ୍ଚିବନୀ ପଛେ ଜୀବନେ ସୁଖ ପାଇବ |

A Day in Every Tapmian's Life

Its 7:30 in the morning and I was trying to concentrate hard but there’s this distance noise disturbed me. Soon enough I realized it’s nothing other than my alarm clock. Having slept for only a couple of hours my mind was directing me to sleep, but as everyday my clock won. I cleaned myself up and rushed to the mess for breakfast. Its 8:25 am and I still have 3 minutes before the class starts. Lesson one nailed – Time Management. TAPMI doesn’t run by IST, it has its own – TST (TAPMI Standard Time). Simply put it just means that you’ll miss an important lecture if you’re late even by a second. Never being able to beat the professors on punctuality, who always arrive 5 minutes before, I rushed into the class and the watch ticked 8:29 a.m. The class started with some discussions followed by the case study and an all-time killer surprise quiz. Amidst the seriousness of class few students were catching their sleep. Everyone was checking the digital clock hanging on the wall repeatedly to get the class over. Finally the class got over and its 12:45 p.m. which can only mean steaming hot lunch. After the lunch people are slowly trickling back into the class – most taking power naps, some updating their current affairs reading newspapers, few indulging in occasional gossip and the remaining brushing up for the upcoming quiz. Now it was the second half of the day. Heavy lunch started putting its effect on eyes of everyone during the classes. All were trying hard to keep their eyes open. A group activity during class made everyone awake suddenly. The classes continued till 4:00 p.m. and we had the quiz at 4:30 p.m. It’s 5 in the evening and we are finally done with the classes and the quizzes, when a WhatsApp message sends us hustling around. A group assignment needs to be submitted by midnight. It’s time to catch up with my group members and crack our head over the new assignment. Finally after a lot of brain storming we reached at a common conclusion. We drafted the assignment before time and submitted since we were sure that there would be no extension of deadline. Now it’s time for dinner with friends. During dinner we discussed about all the happenings in the college and all the happenings in the respective sections, latest gossips in the college, latest pairs and the list is endless. After dinner it was time for relaxation at TAPMI’s own lawn named as Tapmi Greens. After a long day I returned to my room at 10pm. But suddenly received a reminder mail mentioning there was a batch address by Placement Committee at 11pm. Within 1hr I read for the next quiz. Then at 10.50pm the whole batch rushed to the seminar hall for the meeting. The meeting got over at 11.45pm. How can we miss the birthday celebration of our friend? At 12am we celebrated the birthday together with birthday bashes and cake cutting and many more fun in the well (Tapmi’s own place for all sorts of celebrations). Finally around 12:30 a.m., I returned to my hostel room. For us 12 a.m. is just the beginning of a long night. Still I had 3 to 4 hours to go before sleep. I started my pre-reads for next class and individual assignments. Now it’s 3.30am. Eyes are no more giving permission to continue. Sleep prevailed over my tired body and I slept with the great hope of a awesome day ahead.

Apart from regular days, where we can see academic rigors (including guest lecturers, seminars committee events), there are many fun filled days as well. We celebrate all the festivals together irrespective of the states from which we belong. Apart from studying, we get enough platforms to show our talents in innumerable of events. To name a few events like Episode during the month of October (whole college including senior and junior is divided in to different groups which compete with each other to show their talents in various fields starting from academic to cultural), Brandscan (Tapmi’s own market research fair), Speed (Annual sports fest), Atharva (intercollege events where students from various top level colleges participate and a unique quizzing event is organized at Kaup beach), Waves(Intra Tapmi cultural events). Apart from various events, we celebrate various festivals like Ganesh Chaturthi, Onam, Pongal, and Dussehera. We spent here many sleepless nights but each moment is worth of living. We live each moment, we enjoy each moment, and we dream every moment for our future. I could not realize when one year passed like this. I am looking forward a great year ahead.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay......

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...... 

Tree 

People call me "Tree". 

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up anything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiled & gave my best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay" 

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...... 

Leaf 

People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why wouldn't he pursue me? Since he loves me why didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend,my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, hishabits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expectme a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursued me. Everyday he pursued me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, the leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay. 

Wind 

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust of wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him. 

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding ​her. Tears were there in her eyes as he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave it to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepted the note. The next day, she appeared & passed me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

"It's not that the leaf's heart is too heavy. Its because leaf never wants to leave tree." I replied to her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

One day,hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend,I gave her a call. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rushed to her place & pressed her doorbell. During the moment when she opened the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay... 

Moral

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.

There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss?

This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. 

 

Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone. 

--

Source : Unknown

Credit goes to the original writer.

A Love Story : Part 2

Part 2 :

The day in the college went smoothly.  In the evening I sent a message to her and got an instance reply. Was it an impulse or coincidence or she was just waiting for my message? But mind could not get an answer to that silly question. The night arrived with some new expectation. I could not restrict my hand from calling that unknown number.  A free call service was immense help to me at that time. Thanks to my network provider.  I do not understand what we were talking. However it continued till 3am in the morning. I had never talked with anyone so long before. Anyways that was such a lovely time which past with blink of an eye. Next day I had class in the morning. But I missed it since I could not wake up.. I felt very bad about that. I thought I will not talk so long any more. But again mind was not read to obey my orders. On that night again I called her.  Our talks continued till late night. This time I managed to get up and attend classes.  I talked to my friends regarding this. My friends started teasing me. In the hostel everybody told me that she would ask about my girlfriend tonight. That day I thought let me not call that day. As I was calling for last 2 days. But sharp at our previous timing, my phone ringed. And our conversation started. To my surprise same thing happened that night which had been told by my friends.  She inquired whether I had a girl friend or not. As expected I said no. I back fired the same question at the same moment.  But the answer I got in positive. I got surprised. But later she tried to explain that one guy had proposed her due to some bait between friends. "It was long time back. There is nothing between us now and that was only for one month". She said that it was just a friendly proposal and for fun he had proposed me. From these talks I could realize something is there in her heart for me sure. Otherwise why will she talk with me so long and why she will ask questions which are well expected before hand by my friends.

On the very next day I thought I was not ready for any new relation now. So I decided that I will ask her directly about her feeling. I remained in a confused mind for the whole day. The night came and tension was mounting up for me to ask such a silly question. How stupid I was. And that day while talking to her casually I asked what you feel about me; as just a new friend, just a senior, or a senior brother. She just got confused and told friend and then told senior and then remained silent. I could infer many things from that silent. So next question from my side was, do you have any feelings for me? And the answer was a straight “Yes” without any confusion. I was ready for such an obvious answer but I was not ready about how to reach. I was not ready to get into a relationship in such a little time and with so little interaction. So I tried to explain her that we are just friends. Do not keep any feelings in heart. Because I do not want to give false hope to you. Tried to console her but tears came down her eyes which I could easily realize at the other side of the phone. The effect of my explanation was coming down to nil. Pain of heart cannot be healed with mere words of mouth. But I thought that pain was not so deep since it was just 3 days we started talking.  But her tear was something which was trying to prove me wrong. I could not take her pain so I consoled that we will remain friend always. So do not worry. We will be good friend and will always be in touch and will talk. Though the words were coming from my inside but I was not sure at that very moment how much I am able to alleviate her pain.

The next day was “Ganesh Chaturthi”. So I had to wake up early. So to know whether my effort had proved any result or not I asked her to wake me up next morning.  Though I slept late still I felt like it was one of the longest night of my life. Time was not passing by. Same thoughts are circling round my brains. I could hear the cry of the girl without talking to her.  I was not sure how life would be changed from the next day. With those thoughts in mind I could not realize when sleep prevailed over me .

                                                                             (To be Continued...)

Giving Back to Society

    “Service to mankind is service to god”.  If everyone can make this very simple sentence as the motto of their life then   the world will be a much better place to live in. Being part of various social clubs like Jaago, MFG Reach,     Akanksha, I have got immense opportunity to serve the people in need and it indeed has changed the meaning  of my life. Being part of these clubs, we have taught children, conducted blood donation camps, conducted  health camps and most of all have spent quality time with the children and made them smile. Though I have  come across many special children in between, I will share few instances which changed my complete  perception about these children.

   During college time, we had been to Ultra school, a school for blind, dumb, deaf and mentally retarded  children near Khurda, a small district in Odisha. The school has around 60 children. We tried to interact with  them. There was one boy named Manas (name changed). He was a mentally retarded child and dumb. By  seeing us he was shouting like anything. We could not get anything from his behavior and got scared. Later  from the teacher of that school we came to know that he was very happy that day so he was shouting. So I got  to know one thing that day; they are not mentally challenged, only difference is that the way they express  themselves is different than normal people which we sometimes cannot understand. And we, the so called  normal people call them to be not normal.

Ultra school near Khurda

    In the same school I met another boy called Bapi (name changed). He is a blind since born. The most talented   thing in him is the acting. Though he is not able to see, still he remembers so many things from television or    external world and he can act with a perfect expression and voice which a normal person will fail to do. We  normal people can see the images, expressions and hear the voice. Still we cannot remember the whole  dialogue after just listening once and cannot act with a perfect expression. But he is a special boy and again we,  the so called normal people call them not to be normal.

Spending time with children in the class room

   On that very day, I realized one thing that they are really God’s own child with so much talents which we  normal human being cannot have. Still we ignore them. Even parents of many children have left them  permanently here. These children do not need luxury like we people, but they just need little care and time. If  with so much hidden talents, which we normal people cannot recognize, we call them challenged and mentally  retarded then what we will be called? It’s a thing to ponder over. It’s the time to give back to the society and  make all such people part of our normal life.

“You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help other people get what they want.” ~ Zig Ziglar

Time to say good bye

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A LOVE STORY

Background:

This is a story between Deep and Sushree during college time in C V Raman College of Engineering, Bhubaneswar (CVRCE). Dipta Keshari Ray (Deep) is a student of CVRCE in 4^th year of engineering. He belongs to Nayagarh, a district in Odisha. Sushreeta aka sushree is a student in the second year in the same college. She is from Khurda, a district in Odisha.

PART – 1:

It was 14^th Aug 2009, the day before the Independence Day, I was at the home. Time was 9:30pm at night. I was having my dinner with mom and my younger brother. Suddenly my phone flashed with an unknown no. I attended the call. A magical low pitch voice of a girl passed through my ear.

She: “Hello”

Me: “Hello who is this? Whom are u searching for?”

She: “Is this Deep? “

Me: “Which Deep? Where have you called?”

She:” Deep from Bengal Engineering College?”

Me: “Sorry!!! Wrong number.”

I disconnected the phone. Though I was in a mood to elongate the talk further but since I was at home it was preventing me from further step.

After dinner I went to bed. Clock was ticking at 11:30pm. Again my phone screen flashed with the same unknown number.

She: “Hello, Is there any call to your mobile from this number?”

Me: “Yes”

She: “I am Sushree from your college 2^nd year. I am so sorry. My roommate was trying to call his brother Deep from my mobile. By mistake she called you. I am very sorry for this.”

Me: (Ohh!! This is the girl I have seen in that committee meeting. But how did she get my number. I was thinking in mind.) “It’s fine.”

                Next day was Independence Day. Though our country got independence on that day, but nothing was getting changed for me on that day. The only thing was that, I was relaxed from the college. Perhaps I was independent in that way. At 5:30pm my phone beeped with a message of happy Independence Day from the same unknown number. But that number was no longer unknown to me. Immediately I called back and wished the same. I was talking for the first time to an unknown girl I was really excited from inside. However could not continue the talk. Now it’s 16^th August and time to back to college. I was on the way to back college thinking about Sushree.

                                                                                                                (TO BE CONTINUED…)