A Love Story : Part 2

Part 2 :

The day in the college went smoothly.  In the evening I sent a message to her and got an instance reply. Was it an impulse or coincidence or she was just waiting for my message? But mind could not get an answer to that silly question. The night arrived with some new expectation. I could not restrict my hand from calling that unknown number.  A free call service was immense help to me at that time. Thanks to my network provider.  I do not understand what we were talking. However it continued till 3am in the morning. I had never talked with anyone so long before. Anyways that was such a lovely time which past with blink of an eye. Next day I had class in the morning. But I missed it since I could not wake up.. I felt very bad about that. I thought I will not talk so long any more. But again mind was not read to obey my orders. On that night again I called her.  Our talks continued till late night. This time I managed to get up and attend classes.  I talked to my friends regarding this. My friends started teasing me. In the hostel everybody told me that she would ask about my girlfriend tonight. That day I thought let me not call that day. As I was calling for last 2 days. But sharp at our previous timing, my phone ringed. And our conversation started. To my surprise same thing happened that night which had been told by my friends.  She inquired whether I had a girl friend or not. As expected I said no. I back fired the same question at the same moment.  But the answer I got in positive. I got surprised. But later she tried to explain that one guy had proposed her due to some bait between friends. "It was long time back. There is nothing between us now and that was only for one month". She said that it was just a friendly proposal and for fun he had proposed me. From these talks I could realize something is there in her heart for me sure. Otherwise why will she talk with me so long and why she will ask questions which are well expected before hand by my friends.

On the very next day I thought I was not ready for any new relation now. So I decided that I will ask her directly about her feeling. I remained in a confused mind for the whole day. The night came and tension was mounting up for me to ask such a silly question. How stupid I was. And that day while talking to her casually I asked what you feel about me; as just a new friend, just a senior, or a senior brother. She just got confused and told friend and then told senior and then remained silent. I could infer many things from that silent. So next question from my side was, do you have any feelings for me? And the answer was a straight “Yes” without any confusion. I was ready for such an obvious answer but I was not ready about how to reach. I was not ready to get into a relationship in such a little time and with so little interaction. So I tried to explain her that we are just friends. Do not keep any feelings in heart. Because I do not want to give false hope to you. Tried to console her but tears came down her eyes which I could easily realize at the other side of the phone. The effect of my explanation was coming down to nil. Pain of heart cannot be healed with mere words of mouth. But I thought that pain was not so deep since it was just 3 days we started talking.  But her tear was something which was trying to prove me wrong. I could not take her pain so I consoled that we will remain friend always. So do not worry. We will be good friend and will always be in touch and will talk. Though the words were coming from my inside but I was not sure at that very moment how much I am able to alleviate her pain.

The next day was “Ganesh Chaturthi”. So I had to wake up early. So to know whether my effort had proved any result or not I asked her to wake me up next morning.  Though I slept late still I felt like it was one of the longest night of my life. Time was not passing by. Same thoughts are circling round my brains. I could hear the cry of the girl without talking to her.  I was not sure how life would be changed from the next day. With those thoughts in mind I could not realize when sleep prevailed over me .

                                                                             (To be Continued...)

Giving Back to Society

    “Service to mankind is service to god”.  If everyone can make this very simple sentence as the motto of their life then   the world will be a much better place to live in. Being part of various social clubs like Jaago, MFG Reach,     Akanksha, I have got immense opportunity to serve the people in need and it indeed has changed the meaning  of my life. Being part of these clubs, we have taught children, conducted blood donation camps, conducted  health camps and most of all have spent quality time with the children and made them smile. Though I have  come across many special children in between, I will share few instances which changed my complete  perception about these children.

   During college time, we had been to Ultra school, a school for blind, dumb, deaf and mentally retarded  children near Khurda, a small district in Odisha. The school has around 60 children. We tried to interact with  them. There was one boy named Manas (name changed). He was a mentally retarded child and dumb. By  seeing us he was shouting like anything. We could not get anything from his behavior and got scared. Later  from the teacher of that school we came to know that he was very happy that day so he was shouting. So I got  to know one thing that day; they are not mentally challenged, only difference is that the way they express  themselves is different than normal people which we sometimes cannot understand. And we, the so called  normal people call them to be not normal.

Ultra school near Khurda

    In the same school I met another boy called Bapi (name changed). He is a blind since born. The most talented   thing in him is the acting. Though he is not able to see, still he remembers so many things from television or    external world and he can act with a perfect expression and voice which a normal person will fail to do. We  normal people can see the images, expressions and hear the voice. Still we cannot remember the whole  dialogue after just listening once and cannot act with a perfect expression. But he is a special boy and again we,  the so called normal people call them not to be normal.

Spending time with children in the class room

   On that very day, I realized one thing that they are really God’s own child with so much talents which we  normal human being cannot have. Still we ignore them. Even parents of many children have left them  permanently here. These children do not need luxury like we people, but they just need little care and time. If  with so much hidden talents, which we normal people cannot recognize, we call them challenged and mentally  retarded then what we will be called? It’s a thing to ponder over. It’s the time to give back to the society and  make all such people part of our normal life.

“You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help other people get what they want.” ~ Zig Ziglar

Time to say good bye